I cannot believe it has been months ever since I did a legit fashion related post. I know I have been busy with school and trying out YouTube and all, but to be completely honest, those are not the first actual reasons why I decided to stop posting “OOTD’s,” as people call them, on my blog.
I don’t want to detail every single thing that happened as to why I stopped, but to summarize.. I felt insecure.
Yes, fashion and beauty and all things girly make me happy, but they make me feel insecure too. It’s not easy to live in a world where you are constantly judged for how you look. It hurts how you can be so passionate about something but you don’t always feel like you’re good enough for it. It’s like loving something with your whole heart, only to realize that it doesn’t love you back. Hugot?? hahaha. It’s kind of too deep or corny or whatever, but I’m sure you have felt that too.
But at the same time, even if you’re hurting because you feel like you’re never going to be good enough for what you want to become, you still go for it anyway. I still go for it, even if there is no certainty as to what this blog will lead to. Maybe I really am just an average teenage girl trying to look good in outfit posts, filming makeup tutorials for no purpose, or typing this blog post that only a select few will read, and maybe that’s it. I want to believe I can be more, but I can only hope.
The point is, insecurities can eat you up. They can make you feel less or unworthy, but never let them stop you. Kahit na ang sakit at di mo na kaya, you have to keep going for it. For if you don’t, you’ll be left with a lot of doubts, regrets, and “what if’s.”
No matter how cliche the saying “Don’t give up” is, it’s true. Cliches are cliches for a reason. And remember that it may be hard to wait around for something you know might never happen, but it’s definitely harder to give up when you know it’s everything that you want (that’s my favorite quote btw haha!). So ngayon ka pa ba susuko?
Top from Cotton On, Jacket from Penshoppe, Shorts from Kim hahaha
I don’t know where this deep topic came from but it never hurts to try and write something inspirational! (weh moira??) Also, thank you to my best friend Ilka for taking these photos. You’re the best! ❤
As we leave 2016, why not leave all our insecurities with it too? Besides, you have to be the heroine of your own life, not the victim. 😉
xo, moira ❤